lol... luck...

this one is for zowie one...
lol,
seriously,
wish you luck on your new bfsssss...
haha...

days, times....

the day of 12th on february...
was the day that i have been waiting for...
but my choice...
is just like a son does not pick his father...
i didn't made that choice...
that choice picked me...

people tells everything that i wanted to know...
people that spend time with me...
knows very well what kind of family i come from...

they know what should be told...
what to say in front of me...
but yet...
some did not learn...

people say love can be the strongest power in life...
but yet...

i am the only one,
that will answer...
NO...

choice

sometimes when it come to a certain choice...
you don't make the choice...
the choice makes you...

the choice that we had...
have broken into pieces when that day came...
those blogs that i wrote...
was not meant to hurt you...

and that is why i said i am afraid of you breaking up with me after you see my blog...
but yet...
you took it so seriously that you said those words...
those words...
hurts...

but yet after we broke up,
we always get back together...
but this time...
after we got back together,
i surely tried to find back the feeling i felt for you...
but i failed...

just take it is me that left you alone...
now both sides got their own way to go...
just hope that the new way you find...
is what you really hope for,
and what brings you back to heaven...
hope you suceed...

23.30.27

今天是七月二号。。。
晚上十一点。
三十分，
二十七秒。。。
分手了四个小时，
四十七分钟，
三十八秒。。。

期待着二月二号的来临，
期待着能拥有美好的回忆。。。

期待着时间的过去，
期待着忘记一切。。。

在短短的两分钟，
能改变一切。。。

虽然对你还有感觉，
还很爱你。。。
但是你的一句：
“原来你叫我老婆，
都是骗我的。。。
我根本不配做你的女朋友。。。
原来，
我根本不幸福。。。”
改变了我们的结局。。。

知道伤得我最重的是什么吗？
“我根本不幸福”

分手的主要原因，
是因为我给不到你想幸福。。。
而给不到你幸福，
又何必缠绕着你呢？

其实也不能怪你啦。。。
当初，
婉祺和我分手，
都是因为我太过信任自己了。。。
而现在我们的结局，
都是因为我不够信任自己。。。

或许我根本不会爱人吧。。。
一，就不够爱。。。
二，就太过爱。。。
爱到over protective了。。。

在这一种家庭长大的我，
太过成熟了。。。
想法必然和别人不一样。。。
喜欢别人交代，
喜欢别人告诉清楚。。。

虽然还爱着你，
但是不能再接下去了。。。
因为我真的很怕，
长期累积一次爆。。。

可能分手，
是我们唯一的选择吧。。。
可能分手，
是我唯一的选择吧。。。

二月六号。。。

今天，
正式把我有blog的事实，
放上网。。。

希望不会得罪到别人吧。。。