sick............. again... zzzzzzzzzz

just now afternoon
was in my bro's house...
was resting...
when suddenly,
my head begins to hurts.

only i realise,
i am having a REALLY high fever.
why very high?
because my body was shaking so hard
that i can hardly control.

that time,
i wanted to talk to somebody.
the only one i can thought of were you,
then i picked up my phone...
i REALLY want to sms you and talk to you that time.
but yet i figure...
our relationship isn't that good anymore...
we hardly even chat nowadays...
so i put down my phone again
and let the time pass...
now, i really don't now who to talk to...
just hope somebody will just call me
or leave a message in my msn with you phone number...
i really need to talk to somebody...

kiss...

just now i was playing with my 5month old niece...
i was blowing her stomach to make her laugh...
and she accidentally kissed on my chick when her head fell on mine...
at that moment... my mind was full of you...

i know i am suppose to forget about you...
but i just can't... it is too tough for me...
it seems that memory is just too hard to be thrown away...
too heavy for me to lift up but yet so light in my mind...

also... i know i am suppose to move on after so long...
i have somebody to like... new people to know...
but i just can't seem to get you out of my mind...
what can i do about it... i can't forget about you...
you just keep coming back into my mind...
every time i tried to forget about you...

sure my feeling for jealousy was strong...
because you were so nice...
and have a lot of people chase after you...
but yet we lived peacefully...
maybe a little argument....
but we get back every time we argue...

can somebody teach me how to forget somebody like that?...
i want to move on and i want to meet new people...
and i want to set my heart for other targets...
like school... studies... and my future...
i don't want to get stuck in the same person anymore...

Past...

don't know why...
on the date of 23rd may twentyten...
the past kept flashing back
while i'm trying to forget about them...
it seems it was like
almost everything i remember since primary...
friends... family...
seems all to tough at the moment...

but compare to now...
it seems all those tough problems,
were just tiny problems...
now it is much more different...

i have my family problems to worry about,
my friends...
and somebody
i'm trying to forget since that time...
that period is just too hard for me to forget...
everytime i see this person,
the moments that passed,
just keep flashing back and back...
this is the toughest yet in the moment...
it seems i just can't get this person out of my mind or something...

well, time has passed...
we need to keep moving forward,
i can see SOME and only SOME changes in me...
taking additional maths tuition,
five hours a day for the pass few weekends...
and i hope...
the memory that i had with that particular person,
will change into a pile of dust as well...

想念。。。英国。。。

刚从英国回来...
坐在电脑面前...
不知如何是好...

还记得在英国的星期六晚...
我带着沉重的心情,
走向机场里, 在登机之前,
打了一个电话给我姐姐,
道别了之后,就上机了...

我走到机门口,
空姐告诉我应该做哪里后,
我便慢慢地走到我的位子去...
我把我的手提行李放到上头的柜子里,
走向我的位子,58a...

我坐在窗口边,
向外看出...
想不到一向不喜欢出国的我,
竟然会因为想留在英国,
而留下了眼泪...

我的眼泪,
与窗外的雨很相识...
两个都下不停...
等到了十点半,
我脸上的眼泪渐渐地停了,
我也开始有些睡意了,
但是为了留恋着一个地方,
我坚决不睡...

到了十一点零七分,
飞机终于开始启动了...
虽然窗外的雨都已经停了,
但是在我心里的雨,
却又渐渐地落下了...

我这一次与之前那一段爱情一样,
因某些理由而没有延长留在英国的时间,
在飞机开启的前一刻,
我还在想我这样做,
到底值不值得...

十三个小时的机程,
我坐在飞机里,
回想着我在英国的十七天,
我有时还是不知觉地流下了眼泪...

十三个小时就这样过了,
我抵达了机场,
拿下我的手提行李,
走向吉隆坡机场...

我乘坐了机场的一号火车,
向登记处去...

我拿出我的护照走向快速甲,
通过了以后,
我把我的护照放进手提行李,
然后向皮带G走去...
等了半个小时左右,
我的大行李就出了来...
拿了我的行李,
便推着手推车,
慢慢，慢慢地走向大门...

我看见我妈在机场门口等我,
我便向她那儿去,
把我的行李都放进了我妈的车里之后,
便坐进她的车里,
一起回家...

回到家后,
我把我的两个行李都拿上房去,
用了大概一个小时,
把所有的东西都整理好,
便坐在床上休息...

我坐在床上回想着在英国的日子,
不知不觉已到了两点多...
当时我很想找一个人来和我谈谈天天,
但是却想到了在这一个时间,
我可以找的知己都应该睡了吧...

我坐在电视机前,
看电视节目,
但虽然在看电视节目,
但我依然很想和一个人谈天...
到这一个时候,
我的眼泪,
又纷纷的落下了... ... ...

i'm back...

whao, haven't been posting for sometimes now...
was quite busy with my exam...
although i did improved...
but yet i still failed my history... ==
must worked harder on it...

anyway, many things have happened ever since i haven't posting...
school was bust with projects and till now,
i still haven't hand in my geo project...
haizz....
tired man...
but what to do?
PMR is coming...

and i still need to work on my malay and history....
my two worse subjects...
nothing to post much these days...
although a lot of things happened....
but i still forget everything...

haizz...
anyway...
maybe from now on i will be posting more often...
but depends...
i might or might not be...
if not, have to wait after PMR then...

byezz

for you ..... ..... .... ...

爱很简单

忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你
有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
喔......
i love you
无法不爱你baby
说你也爱我
永远不愿意baby
失去你
不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单
我一直在这里baby
一直在爱你
永远都不放弃
这爱你的权利
如果你还有一些困惑
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你
yes i do

我不怕

车开往海边 我想念你
鞋子里面满载沙子和回忆
躺在沙滩上的我 闭上眼深呼吸
全世界那么安静就像在专心听
你不会晓得 好几次我想吻你吧
现在睡了吗 还是在屋顶吹著头发
你在散步的时候 还未从前流泪吗
是不是心里忽然出现另一个他
我想要说我那天没说的那句话
就算被没收我也不会怕
对 我不怕
我想要说我永远爱你的那句话
可能我说的地点有点傻
是 是我的 心里话
心里话

寂寞先生

你的笑容是恩惠
世界难得那麽美
於是追 要你陪
可惜本能终会将美丽汗水化成泪水

黑夜之所以会黑
叫醒人心里的鬼
在游说 在萦回
在体内是什麽 在把我摧毁在伤痕累累

我可以无所谓
寂寞却一直掉眼泪
人类除了擅长颓废 做什麽都不对
Oh … I’m not okay

我假装无所谓
才看不到心被拧碎
人在爱情里越残废 就会越多安慰
无论有虚伪
无论多虚伪

空虚并非是词汇
能够形容的魔鬼
它支配着行为
能摆脱寂寞我什麽都肯给 就像个傀儡