Saturday, December 27, 2008

thoughts...

yesterday night...
went to kuala selangor for dinner,
along with some praying...

went with my aunty,
who is a strong Buddhism...
heard she said about something...
and i've some thoughts in my mind...

WE, US...
these words...
why does,
how did it start between us?

why did i made the decision in the start...
is it because of your shyness?
cuteness?
kindness?
can't seem to recall,
what is the first thing,
that i thought about you when i first chat with you...

why did i chased after you?
how did i started all of these?
why do i love you so much?

i've always been thinking...
if i didn't couple with you...
who will be with now?

kensonz?
jit yoong?
jan kiet?
who?

there are so many more boys out there,
out there somewhere who are better than me...
why did you picked me?

although you said...
be with me,
you are happy...

but how?
all i did was hurt you feelings...
and not only one time...
alot of times that i couldn't even remember,
how many times did i do so...

i love you so much...
that i am so jealous when you are with other boys,
or even when you are talking much more lovely,
than talking to you closest friends...

but now...
everything that i've been through...
and everything i've heard yesterday...
i've learned to let go...
let go when it is necessarily...

and now...
i just hope that(touch wood) when you break up with me,
is because of another boy better than me...
then i'll let go easily...
if not, i'll just ask for the truth,
until i lie down in the coffin...

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