sick............. again... zzzzzzzzzz

just now afternoon
was in my bro's house...
was resting...
when suddenly,
my head begins to hurts.

only i realise,
i am having a REALLY high fever.
why very high?
because my body was shaking so hard
that i can hardly control.

that time,
i wanted to talk to somebody.
the only one i can thought of were you,
then i picked up my phone...
i REALLY want to sms you and talk to you that time.
but yet i figure...
our relationship isn't that good anymore...
we hardly even chat nowadays...
so i put down my phone again
and let the time pass...
now, i really don't now who to talk to...
just hope somebody will just call me
or leave a message in my msn with you phone number...
i really need to talk to somebody...

kiss...

just now i was playing with my 5month old niece...
i was blowing her stomach to make her laugh...
and she accidentally kissed on my chick when her head fell on mine...
at that moment... my mind was full of you...

i know i am suppose to forget about you...
but i just can't... it is too tough for me...
it seems that memory is just too hard to be thrown away...
too heavy for me to lift up but yet so light in my mind...

also... i know i am suppose to move on after so long...
i have somebody to like... new people to know...
but i just can't seem to get you out of my mind...
what can i do about it... i can't forget about you...
you just keep coming back into my mind...
every time i tried to forget about you...

sure my feeling for jealousy was strong...
because you were so nice...
and have a lot of people chase after you...
but yet we lived peacefully...
maybe a little argument....
but we get back every time we argue...

can somebody teach me how to forget somebody like that?...
i want to move on and i want to meet new people...
and i want to set my heart for other targets...
like school... studies... and my future...
i don't want to get stuck in the same person anymore...