sick............. again... zzzzzzzzzz

just now afternoon
was in my bro's house...
was resting...
when suddenly,
my head begins to hurts.

only i realise,
i am having a REALLY high fever.
why very high?
because my body was shaking so hard
that i can hardly control.

that time,
i wanted to talk to somebody.
the only one i can thought of were you,
then i picked up my phone...
i REALLY want to sms you and talk to you that time.
but yet i figure...
our relationship isn't that good anymore...
we hardly even chat nowadays...
so i put down my phone again
and let the time pass...
now, i really don't now who to talk to...
just hope somebody will just call me
or leave a message in my msn with you phone number...
i really need to talk to somebody...

kiss...

just now i was playing with my 5month old niece...
i was blowing her stomach to make her laugh...
and she accidentally kissed on my chick when her head fell on mine...
at that moment... my mind was full of you...

i know i am suppose to forget about you...
but i just can't... it is too tough for me...
it seems that memory is just too hard to be thrown away...
too heavy for me to lift up but yet so light in my mind...

also... i know i am suppose to move on after so long...
i have somebody to like... new people to know...
but i just can't seem to get you out of my mind...
what can i do about it... i can't forget about you...
you just keep coming back into my mind...
every time i tried to forget about you...

sure my feeling for jealousy was strong...
because you were so nice...
and have a lot of people chase after you...
but yet we lived peacefully...
maybe a little argument....
but we get back every time we argue...

can somebody teach me how to forget somebody like that?...
i want to move on and i want to meet new people...
and i want to set my heart for other targets...
like school... studies... and my future...
i don't want to get stuck in the same person anymore...

Past...

don't know why...
on the date of 23rd may twentyten...
the past kept flashing back
while i'm trying to forget about them...
it seems it was like
almost everything i remember since primary...
friends... family...
seems all to tough at the moment...

but compare to now...
it seems all those tough problems,
were just tiny problems...
now it is much more different...

i have my family problems to worry about,
my friends...
and somebody
i'm trying to forget since that time...
that period is just too hard for me to forget...
everytime i see this person,
the moments that passed,
just keep flashing back and back...
this is the toughest yet in the moment...
it seems i just can't get this person out of my mind or something...

well, time has passed...
we need to keep moving forward,
i can see SOME and only SOME changes in me...
taking additional maths tuition,
five hours a day for the pass few weekends...
and i hope...
the memory that i had with that particular person,
will change into a pile of dust as well...